craig owens.

i never really do this, but i wanted to share a piece of my writing in it’s complete stripped down and rawest form. before i get the chance to psycho analyze it into the ground.. before anyyy sort of emotion goes away long enough for me to care about grammar, or punctuation… and before i start thinking of how the reader will judge it. this excerpt is literally straight from my journal. hopefully some of you can relate to this feeling…

” …and this may hurt quite a lot, but if i can hold you at the length of my arms, at the tips of my fingers, i may just hold you back enough to find out

who i really am, and what makes really happy. what makes me smile, and 

not so hungry. for your love. the only thing i ever wanted, my only chance to

prove that i am capable of such a thing. i’ve learned there is just no phasing, pushing, pleasing you, no matter how hard i try to, and i’m spent. all of this money and this time, changing, fighting, fixing. things, and who i am. well, that’s all chaged a lot, and maybe that’s you were brought into my life,

 but that’s just not good enough for me. because you were supposed to be the one that i lived with, forever. and it’s not the first time that i see. things seem to never work out the way i want them, and all you can is try so hard you cry. if your heart is really in it, and you’ve given everything then why be so sad? about everything you’ve ever wanted yelling, screaming, getting up and running away. being all alone and empty while you know there is actually someone that gets me somewhere out there. and just because were in love, doesn’t mean that we can be together. “

I am looking for the most talented female singer / songwriters (also must play guitar) for a special project that I’m working on. If you consider yourself a talented, hardworking musician that’s looking to make music your life and career.. Please send songs, videos, pictures or any other indications of your talent / image w/ the subject line ’ I live for music.’ to Jacob at circusbooking@yahoo.com. Good luck, and I will hopefully be speaking you all soon!

-Craig.

P.S. - If you know a girl that fits the bill, please send this her way! The more entries the better! WE WILL NOT ACCEPT THE APPLICATION IF IT IS NOT SENT BY THE ACTUAL APPLICANT HERSELF, THANKS!

P.S.S - This is NOT for the new band featuring Nick Martin, Aaron Stern and Matt Good. Thought I would kill that rumor before it even started. <333.

the lyrics to this song by Dead Prez sums up how I feel about music, and the world that surrounds it. open for self-interpretation, like all great writing. listen, and apply to your life as you see fit. as for me, i promise to be open like a book.. and on every page is a lesson measured by what you can carry away from it..

“”Rather attack than not react

Back the beats it don’t reflect

On how many records get sold
On sex, drugs, and rock and roll
Whether your project’s put on hold
In the real world
These just people with ideas
They just like me and you
When the smoke and camera disappear
Again the real world (world)
It’s bigger than all these fake ass records
When poor folks got the millions
And my woman’s disrespected
If you check 1,2,
My word of advice to you is just relax
Just do what you got to do
If that don’t work then kick the facts
If you a fighter, rider, lighter, flame ignitor, crowd exciter
Or you wanna just get high
Then just say it
But then if you a liar-liar, pants on fire
Wolf-cry agent with a wire
I’m gonna know it when I play it

Don’t think these record deals
Gonna feed your seeds
And pay your bills because they not
MC’s get a little bit of love and think they hot
Talkin’ ‘bout how much money they got
Nigga all y’all records sound the same
I sick of that fake thug, R & B
Rap scenario all day on the radio
Same scenes in the video, monotonous material
Y’all don’t here me though
These record labels slang our tapes like dope
You can be next in line, and signed
And still be writing rhymes and broke
Would you rather have a Lexus or justice
A dream or some substance ”“

head over to facebook.com/craigeryowens for a video announcement. <33.

so, for the past few months.. ‘we’ have been working really hard - creating a new record for our new band. ‘we’ have a ton of material & plan on spending a little more time perfecting the songs- to ensure that this is the best record we have ever written, as individuals, and as a group. ‘we’ really appreciate all of your patience as this has been a long process for all of us.

I do believe though, that it is about time that I begin to slowly start sharing more information with all of you on what it is that has had so much hard work and time put into it..

so, how about.. on Tuesday? would you guys be into me revealing a band member via my twitter on that day?

this isn’t a math equation, and I’m no mathematician. I’m a boy of simple persuasion. a small town kid, just full of passion. <333.

everything in my life, has prepared me for & lead me to the very place that i am…& the journey that i’m about to embark on, i’m ready for.

recently, i’ve been keeping a journal. it’s basically this entire process of writing the new record. the changes that i have been going through. most of the new lyrics are in it-raw form…. and i have the idea of somehow publishing it, and sending it out with copies of the record at some point… doodles and all. it’s something, that i would LOVE to do.

would you guys be into something like that ?